March 2009
22 posts
I’m afraid of being completely happy. Completely solved. I feel like I know so much now. I feel so much. Am I really the one who’s missing out?
go. away.
seriously.
ATTENTION!
I officially have inattentive ADD with slight hyperactivity. And my mother would rather watch American Idol than listen to me. Rudy has a new red PETCO hat. God my head is killing me. Hopefully they can medicate me so I can function normally when I move to Dallas. My family is full of a bunch of moody mother fuckers. I ate really fast and I feel like I’m going to throw up. Not having a cell...
Dropped my phone for the last time today. Wonderful.
Listen
Sometimes I do bad things. I look for the quick fix. I do the irrational, unrealistic. But for some reason it just works for me. I get into a rage. I’m so angry. I need to fix this. I don’t wanna cry. I don’t wanna just put my head under the sheets. I wanna make it better for tomorrow. Screw ten years from now. Tomorrow is all I need.
“My bed sheets are worn, but not in the way that means I got what I wanted, just in the way that I’ve been thinking up stars and counting them off my ceiling for far too long. The air is stale but I inhale-exhale because my breath isn’t being stolen or bought. I rip rose petals from my heart and blow them to my mind, a neverending doubt that’s left up to chance. There’s one thing I’m sure...
CONTROL
Hasn’t that been the problem this whole time? It might be wrong… But God it feels so good.
Believe me, I get it. I know how I affect people. Just sit back and let it happen. For better or for worse, your future is all up to me.
February 2009
39 posts
I won't cross these streets until you hold my...
One of my dearest friend’s boyfriend overdosed and died yesterday. I don’t know If you’re into praying or whatever but please keep my miss kara in your thoughts and prayers. Less than a year ago she lost her mother, and now she lost her boyfriend, whom she was even living with. She is honestly one of the strongest girls I know, I don’t know if I would be able to handle all...
Until you're broken, you don't know what you're...
(via overflowing)
I'm not sure...
What’s causing this but I love it. Things are moving forward. And I can’t wait. To the snobs in my family: FUCK YOU. You know what? I really just don’t care anymore. At all. I’ll wear my hair the way I want to, I’ll color it however I want, and I won’t let your rude remarks get to me. I’ll wear what I want, and it won’t hurt me when you’re...
“If a girl looks swell when she meets you, who gives a damn if she’s late?...”
– J. D. Salinger The Catcher in the Rye, spoken by Holden Caulfield (via overflowing)
Definitely one of my favorite books.
“Nothing beats being really honest about who you are and what you need. All the...”
– Four Christmases (via filmquotes) (via unicornology)
Hopefully this is the start of something new...
I had another nightmare again.. of course… they’re never ending. But last night something was different. I fixed the problem and everything was okay. In the nightmare my greyhound Rudy got out of the house and ran so fast in one direction that he got too far away and he couldn’t find his way back home. Now Rudy isn’t just some dog… he’s my baby Rudy. He knows...
Go ahead, complete me. I dare you.
“You just get to a point where if you don’t do it to yourself, you get a...”
“another thing is no matter how much you think you love somebody, you’ll step...”
– chuck palahniuk, invisible monsters. (via iguessthatscool) (via unicornology)
“#35: Someone who wants to experience all of my favorite things.”
– 1,001 Things I Want In A Lover (via jotterbook) (via havearide) (via unicornology)
Va Va Va...
Vegetarian options in Ardmore are poo! Daddy turned 50 today. If he only knew the real fun I was having tonight…
Went to see Coraline 3D with Hashers and went to Crapplebee’s. But I don’t care… loving connections make my heart beat fast. :)
But Rudy is my TRUE valentine. Haha I love my baby brindle. Goodnight kids, sleep well and be jealous!
“Ta ta taaaa tabs....